SELAMAT HARI RAYA MAAF ZAHIR BATIN

well well well....sori 4 not updating....was bz wif homey stuff n packed wif emergencies here n ther...noting much though...it turns tat tis yr Raye celebration is not as merry as i tot...de mood was not ther n its still not ther...
b4 raye, was supoz 2 spring clean hse n cook 4 Raye bt was shocked by a call by my Thai aunt tat mu uncle was sick n was rushed 2 hospital immdtly..my sis n bro went 1st as they need 2 settle de admission..me n mum wer halfway cooking n we stop halfway n rushed ther 2...fortunately my uncle is ok, its a stomach ulcer n he was admitted..gt hm n wanted 2 do werk bt gt nice2 show so gota delay n delay til 4am...woke up at 6am, helped mum prepare de dishes..damn!! i was closing my eyes wen i was doing de werk..haiz...my head was spinning...
had breakfast n quickly clean up hse agn b4 guests come...my 1st guest came in de afternoon n tat was my bro-in-law sis fmly...tat was stil ok..at nite, one big lorry came(bside my dad)...rushed out wif bro buy ice...my last guest of de 1st day was Maisara fmly...haha...she was so cute n damn naughty til her sarong koyak...hehe...go 2 bed at 12pm...
was awaken by a phonecall at 5am...it turn out my relative who came wif de big lorry earlier has passed away due to heart attack...i pity him as he is stil young at the age of mid 40s n had 8kids, eldest of my age n de youngest of 2yrs...i'm so shocked tat i cant slp til 7am...was supoz 2 go melawat bt overslpt til 12pm...my parents wer oready ther...woke up n gt ready 2 go wif bro...luckily was not late..i gota c de late 4 de last time, i cried...:( lots of tings in my mind..haix......followed 2 de cemetery n saw how they bury de dead..i was so terrified if i'm down ther...head was spinning n wana rush hm bt bro insist on going 'jln raye'..aiyoh!! jln raye aftr cuming bek frm melawat...?? sewel kape...i don wana go bt he insists...go oni la, jus 2 eat..so went oni 2 aunt hse at clmnt...den go 2 hsptl 2 visit uncle...gt hm at 730pm n shower all...eat panadol, wanted 2 rez...RING!!! damn!! was abt 2 close de door wen my relative wana cum...ok, gt ready n act normal like not sick like tat..haiz...they went hm at 10pm...quickly close 'shop'...i was damn tired n my head kip spinning...
de nxt day went 2 tnjg pagar 2 mit de agency 2 tek my werk time sheet n i was damn gong 2 go ther..i was oready at tis plc wher i cant c de name of de building n i m luking 4 international plaza..i kol de agency n ask 4 direction..2 my dumbness, i was actuali at de plc oready!!! how 'clever' can i b...met de agent n took de sheet n tot of going hm..sad, gota go hospital...ok den...
aftr went ther, went 2 lot1 2 buy ofis wear clothes at tis fashion..got 2 shirts oready 4 50bux...stupidly de nxt shop sell de ofis wear clothes..argh!!! i was so damn dumb tat i cant even tink straight...my head was spinning...gt hm eat panadol agn....hopefuli i'll b well by 2mrw..so xcited 2 werk 2mrw...
woke up at 4am n shiver like hell...my body was damn hot!!! my mum ask me go doc, i say i cant coz 1st day werk...ok de, gt ready 4 werk...i was like over de moon, on cloud 9 or wateva u kol it wen u r sick mood...my eyes wer open bt my mind was slping...so damn tired tat i cant tink properly...at last i went doc instead of going werk...how useless i m...gt 2days mc...gt hm n rez...my siblings wer shocked 2 c me n they laughed at me n start 2 blablabla....
haix....i reli sux...i was reli down tis few days...lots of tings run in my mind...i dono wat else 2 say la...i'm totalu dumb n useless n gong!!! argh!!!!